Gone too soon

So tonight I heard this song Gone Too Soon by Chris Daughtry and well let's just say that I shed a few tears.  Not just for myself but for those I know who have lost babies, whether at 10 weeks, 20 weeks or full term.  I thought I had almost forgotten about my miscarriage but I guess there are those moments where it just comes back to you full force like you just found out.  I almost felt a little guilty being sad because I was only 10 weeks along and I know people who have lost their babies much further along whose grief I know nothing about.  But I realized that there is nothing wrong with feeling emotions toward something that caused pain in my life and I also realized that feeling emotions is still part of the healing process. 

I know that I have many more trials to go through in life, but dealing with this last one made me realize how much love and support I have around me and it also made me realize that I am definitely not alone.  Like I said, I know so many people who have lost babies, some of them multiple babies, and my heart hurts for them too.  But I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who knows us and He has a plan for us.  We don't always see it because we have tunnel vision and sometimes it feels like this life is all there is, but there is so much more.  I also looked on the news and realized what a truly terrible world this is.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not a doomsdayer who thinks everything is wrong in this world.  There is a lot of good and a lot of reasons to rejoice and be happy, but there are a lot of hard things as well.  When I think of those who got bodies but didn't spend time here, I think maybe they were blessed.  Another blessing that comes from trials is we are better able to recognize the blessings we do have.  I am so blessed just to have one beautiful daughter who brings me joy every second of my life.  I know people who can't have children and my heart aches for them too.  Anyways, I don't mean to sound depressing because there can be joy and strength found from our trials and they can lift us up if we so choose.  Tonight I was just thinking of all those angel babies watching over their Mommies and hoping that they know they are being watched over from the other side of the veil.